Ok, so last night was a little rough.  It probably wasn’t the worst night to date, but it was high on the list.  After the boys 10 p.m. feeding, Max went down like a sack of bricks, as usual.  Wes, however, would not fall asleep.  We held him, rocked him, and swaddled him, all to no avail.  Finally, at about 12:15 a.m. he fell asleep.  Fast forward to 2 a.m.  I changed Max first and he was as sweet as could be.  Then it was Wes’s turn, and boy did he let me know he wasn’t happy!  I barely got his diaper off and he is screaming bloody murder, enough to wake Kerry.  No amount of shooshing or his wubbanub would calm him down.  Being wide awake, Kerry jumped up and ran to get his bottle which immediately calmed him down.  Since she was up anyway she helped me with their feeding, and then we were back to square one.  Max was lights out, Wes was wide awake.  Kerry held him for a while and he kind of fell asleep, just enough for us to get back in to bed.  That was 2:50 a.m.  At 3:15 a.m. he started fussing again, so I jumped out of bed and held him until we both fell asleep in the chair in our room.   Once I was confident he was out cold I put him back into the bassinet.  He didn’t make another peep while I was trying to fall asleep, but from the looks of Kerry this morning he must not have stayed down long.  We are already feeding him 4 oz every 4 hours, which is as much as the bottles hold, at least the bottles we have.  We saw 8.5oz bottles at King Soopers the other night and I am thinking we will be moving to those very soon (at least for Wes).  I can’t imagine that his stomach could hold any more than that, but Kerry is going to call Dr. Brandon today to ask.

Hopefully it is just that he is growing super fast and he needs the extra amount.  While we don’t want him to be the fattest baby on the block, we obviously want him to be happy.

 Jeff

Tenth week pictures

April 28, 2009

(gestational age is 40 weeks)

Now that the boys  hit 40 weeks gestational age (preemies have two different ages – actual and adjusted – so the boys are 10 weeks “actual” age, 0 weeks “adjusted” age), I’m going to stop posting weekly pictures next to their loveys, and just take monthly photos with them.  One of these days, I plan on putting together a slideshow of both boys’ growth next to their loveys, but that may have to wait until the weekend since I’m back to work!

Max and his bear - 10 weeks old

Max and his bear - 10 weeks old

Wes (in motion) with his puppy - 10 weeks old

Wes (in motion) with his puppy - 10 weeks old

Kerry

Thanks, Kari!

April 28, 2009

Our friend, Kari, came over on Sunday to photograph the boys to celebrate them getting off oxygen.  Max and Wes were being exceptionally fussy that day, but we did manage to get a few cute pictures out of the afternoon!  Kari is the same friend who did our maternity photos (she came to our house since I was on bed rest, and I had the boys a week later – close call!), and she is extremely talented!  For more info, or to book a sitting with her, visit her website.  Thanks, Kari!  And a special thanks to Janice, for having these adorable onesies made for Max and Wes!
Wes's little foot

Wes's little foot

Wes and his CRAZY eyes

Wes and his CRAZY eyes

Wes giving a sad-faced Max a "thumbs up"

Wes giving a sad-faced Max a "thumbs up"

Max a.k.a. Mr. Blue Eyes

Max a.k.a. Mr. Blue Eyes

Wes looking very serious

Wes looking very serious

The brothers (Wes on the left, Max on the right)

The brothers (Wes on the left, Max on the right)

Our little family

Our little family

Kerry

Back to reality

April 28, 2009

So, I started back to work yesterday (I’m working from home this week, back in the office next week), which is why there wasn’t a 10 week update/picture.  It’s back to reality after being away from work for four long months, and boy was yesterday fun  (insert sarcasm).  Apparently my hard drive crashed (at work), so I wasn’t able to remotely access my work desktop pretty much all day long, which made it hard to “work from home”.  LOL!  I spent a good part of the day on the phone or on IM with our overseas IT Help Desk, which was SUPER frustrating (as there is a HUGE language barrier there), but 10 hours later and I had my remote desktop restored! 

It feels weird being back at work, but it also feels good.  For so many months I have been focused 100% on my pregnancy, keeping myself and the babies healthy and safe, and then on the boys while they were in the hospital.  It feels nice to be focused on something else for a change, and I’m really looking forward to seeing all (okay, most) of my co-workers again!  Getting back into a world filled with adult interaction and something other than spit up, crying, and poop will be a welcome distraction from my new job as a Mommy.  That’s not to say that I won’t miss Max and Wes terribly, because I know I will, but I’m so glad that they will be able to spend some quality time (3 months) with their Daddy while he’s on leave from work.  We are so blessed that we are able to (kind of) afford for Jeff to take this time off unpaid (thanks to our hefty tax refund from writing off our medical expenses from last year). 

I promise to get the boys’ 10 week pictures up on the blog later tonight, so check back then!

Kerry

Due date

April 26, 2009

First off, I would like to express my gratitude to those of you who commented or sent me emails and messages on Facebook regarding my last post.  It really means a lot to me to have the support and understanding from you all, and it also feels good to know that I’m not alone in this.  I mean, I’m obviously not “alone” since I have Jeff and my friends and family to lean on, but it’s just a relief to know that what I’m going through isn’t shameful or wrong.  So thanks.  =)

It’s hard to believe that today is our due date.  It’s April 26th, and we should have babies that are just a few weeks old today, and instead we have babies who will be 10 weeks old tomorrow (or 0 weeks old adjusted age, LOL).  Pretty crazy ride we’ve been on, huh?  We are commemorating the day by having our friend Kari come out to take photos of the boys (their first professional photo shoot), and maybe a few of us as well.  Thankfully, Max and Wes let us have a little more sleep last night so Kari won’t have to spend too much time photoshopping the dark circles under our eyes.

Because I don’t have much else to say right now, I’ll just post a few pics we’ve taken over the last few days…

Wes and Max playing with "Auntie" Tiff

Wes and Max playing with "Auntie" Tiff

The boys crashed out on Tiff's lap

The boys crashed out on Tiff's lap

Daddy and Max taking a nappy

Daddy and Max taking a nappy

Aunt LeAnn loving on both the boys

Aunt LeAnn loving on both the boys

LeAnn, the boys, Asher, and I talking to Aunt Kim and the fam via webcam

LeAnn, the boys, Asher, and I talking to Aunt Kim and the fam via webcam

Kerry

Bummer

April 25, 2009

The boys were little pills last night – it was by far the worst night (and day) we’ve had since Max and Wes have been home.  It’s now 8:30 Saturday night, and I’m working on about 2 hours of sleep in the last 38 hours.  Bummer.

The weather sucked today.  All week it was in the high 70’s and sunny, and today – the day of the March for Babies – it was 46 degrees at 9 a.m. when the walk started.  Needless to say, we weren’t about to have the boys outside for that long, so we stayed home.  Bummer.

My breastmilk supply has completely tanked in the last 48 hours.  And by “tanked”, I mean cut at least by 50%.  I gave it my all – I tried EVERYTHING (including prescription drugs to help “boost” my supply, which didn’t work), and now I’m torn because I really wanted to pump/breastfeed until the boys were 3 months old, but is it really worth it for a few measly ounces a day?  I need to come to terms with the fact that I did the best I could for our boys, and just throw in the towel.  But it’s hard.  Bummer.

I’m 110% certain that I have post partum depression, and I was really hoping I could work through my “issues” on my own, but that doesn’t look like it’s going to happen.  I’m seeing my OB this week, and discussing medications, because I need to be in a better place, especially since I’m going back to work next week.  Bummer.

Kerry

WubbaNub

April 24, 2009

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Jeff (taken on my cell phone)

togetheragain

omg

p.s. – Wes’s ophthalmologist appointment went really well today – both boys don’t have to go back for another 6 months – YAY!!!

Kerry

Our Wes, tube-free

April 24, 2009

whatyoulookinatyaywes

winkingpiratehellowes

Kerry

Our Max, tube-free

April 24, 2009

Jeff has Weston at the opthamologist for his follow-up appointment, so I have been busy at home, snapping pictures of our sweet little Max without the stickers and tubing on his face.  Just thought I would share…

maxreaching

maxdeepthoughts

maxyawnsmile

maxsoserious

Wes pictures coming soon…

Kerry